and when i come home, something doesn't feel like home

blue carpet baby

2009-01-16T19:24:00.000-08:00

can i step up to the mic for just a minute?
i just wanted to say
you never felt like i did today

we never get what we want
i'm here to bring that down someday
don't worry your head, i'm trying to take your pain away
and you never felt like i did today

"get a load of this guy" they would always say
but they've never felt like i do today
i must have been a miracle for someone
God put me here to shine through
all i know is
right now
you've never felt quite like i do

it's interesting to see all the people here for me
o, such a glorious day
i bet they feel like i do today.

"get a load of this guy!"

oh, hello glory

2009-01-08T18:56:00.001-08:00

always alone in a crowded room
this isn't something new
"doc there's a hole where something was"
i'm only toxic to myself anyway

never forget, i forgot
i'm always in between
rearrange.
i wished so hard i was blue
something was always missing
put a lot of hot air to love's ice cube
nominate your latest dream
as life's greatest tragedy
you gotta remember who you are
and by God, i'm always at a new low
feeling it all out
felt like a overflowing trash can

why 'aint it me?
dodge the question
you can begin the debate of who i am
because i have just the left the room
oh, what a world of make believe
took a shot at life
well hell, at least i tried
living is just a bet on your own life
remember that kid.

turn the lights back on:
hand check
now please resume.

gearheaded

2009-01-08T18:55:00.000-08:00

i've got guns, baby
stockpiled ammunition of love
arms dealer to the elite
can't stop what you can't compete with
my only explanation is "i'm sorry, try again"
tug of warfare in my head
can't buy happiness without interest
i cross referenced everything i have versus i had
one day i'll be better off
this is just the beginning i fear
she said "i just don't know you anymore"
i suppose this suffices.
truth is a rubix cube away
some get it and some don't
fill my head with hot air and hold my breath
hey, what else do i have left?

"i got a little bit of blow, we could both get off."

pipe dreams with teflon seals of love

2009-01-08T18:53:00.000-08:00

one off the deep end
waded in the moon pool just to come out a wolf again
i'm stretched
beyond shaking a crystal ball and wishing so hard
that i almost didn't wake back up
it's lunacy, you see
coming into your own skin
speculate
inspect me
am i all wrong for trying work it all through?
giving up on letting myself down
i don't know when the last time it was since i've figured myself out
beyond the silliness of the situation
there lies the monsters underneath your feet
under your bed wasn't prominent enough anymore
they wanna know what you're up to
"tell me baby, how have you been?"
living rigor mortis riding in pop (cult)ure's hearse
i loved it all first
and everything you do

so let me see your moves.

i'm not going to sleep.

but i'll be quiet.

reboot. rest. repeat.

2008-12-24T18:37:00.000-08:00

gridlocked
and i'm starting just to make sense to everyone
but mostly to myself

jump-start
the rest of my sentence
and by the time this makes sense
you'll already be irrelevant

i could cut you down
and i swear that no one will know you exist
i could cut you down
and that's all you'll ever know

i'm not sorry
and what if i never was?
it was the call of the wild in my head
they always told me i'm faded out on love and
i'm not sorry
so what if i never was?

lock jaw
my head in just in detox
was born and ready
was born and ready for no one

and i thought
that maybe this would make sense
i am just in defense
and that's all you need to know

i could cut you down
give the word, and i swear that i'll just hit reset
i cut could cut you down
maybe you'll learn your lesson
but. who. knows?

i'm not sorry
and what if i never was?
it was the call of the wild in my head
they always told me i'm faded out on love and
i'm not sorry
so what if i never was?
it's the call of the wild in my head
they always told me "you can sleep when you're dead"
you're dead

i hope you're wrong
one day baby
so, i was wrong
what's it to you?

i'm not sorry
and what if i never was?
it was the call of the wild in my head
they always told me i'm faded out on love and
i'm not sorry
so what if i never was?
it's the call of the wild in my head
they always told me "you can sleep when you're dead"
so i'm dead.

living through y(our)selves.

2008-12-17T20:53:00.000-08:00

atop the throne sits mr sandman himself
and miss pretentious princess
can it, put a fucking lid on it
and everything will be alright baby
and even though melancholy is my best friend;
and pessimism is my commander in chief
i'm learning how to lean on me and no one else
sandbox dreams are so unlimited
taint the real world with a rose shade
conglomeration of narcissism pressed between my sheets
and i'm the only one sleeping in my bed tonight
just like every night
alonely.

only get lonely when you read the charts.

2008-12-07T00:18:00.000-08:00

i could care fucking less.
i'm steadily losing interest in your existence.
crime rate in my head has gone way up
what do i mean to anyone anymore?
running towards the light but fell and gloriously at that
i'm gonna have to fix this
don't you ever lie to me again.
i'd like to say this is your last warning
but when did what i say mean anything to you anyway
pulling the strings on a puppet show
i cannot believe you.
or you.

so she returned to her cigarettes, like she always did. pouring her feelings into a martini, and downing them back again. what she did was incomparable to her self esteem. rocks(tars) filled her head and put her to bed at night. she's gonna leave that town one day, she said. she just doesn't know when and how. train tickets cost her pocket lining and leaving her ghost cost her her soul. she woke up next to stranger, and she was even alone. toying with emotions wasn't hard, and it was similar to the sunshine she injected whenever she could scrape up the money. benzedrine dreams. i loved the way she thought she could take it all on. you aren't any better than i am. don't let the empty pillow beside me fool you. i am worlds ahead of you. get me back to wherever i felt better. you know me. i should have said i was an outcast. get me back to wherever i never met her. what's it matter to you, you reaped all my benefits anyway. that tv lit the room just right. she knew what she was doing that night. i just hope she can forgive herself one day.

"doing lines of dust and sweat..."

2008-11-27T19:49:00.000-08:00

seeing the world through lemon shaded glasses
don't talk about it be about it.
it's so easy to hate you at face value
but by god, i love you all the way in between
daddy said you gotta go out and make it
mama said you can't, i love my baby too much
sedate all my lost thoughts
the moon had shone through my bedroom window
it finally showed me the light
"i don't need her to be happy"
but hey you don't hurt
except for most of the time
i am only human in the most perfect of situations

i am memory lost

2008-11-19T19:46:00.000-08:00

so since it always had to be this way
whatever.
without you i'm just me
i'm just fine.
i still sing the same way when i drive home
my mind is a tomb
roll over to find a new perspective
but you just still can't sleep.
and you always know that i'm gonna catch some flack
but life always looks better sitting in a cadillac
slow motion happiness
you forgot who you were

"Or maybe you never knew in the first place.
Listening to your heart tick tock
You should have been listening to your conscience tisk tisk.
Now alone, waiting for the marble to crumble
The statue you built as your life,
And destroyed single-handedly "

so why won't the world revolve around me?
i put in a goddamn effort
bless me for not knowing what you knew
hold your breath until you're blue
i'm oh so stubborn though right?
standing ovation for the sit-out crowd
i applaud your guts.
not only did this situation pan out the way you wanted it to
more or less the entire year was dedicated to you.
'forget-me-soon's' and 'i could less''
black dress insignificance.

"You’d burn your bridges before they were built
If you could
Never looking forward
Destroy everything in a backwards motion
Stepping on roses along the way
And licking the thorns
I made this for you
This planet
Of compassion
And willingness.
But you would rather drag on
To where?"

so you know my self esteem 'aint what it used to be
maybe you could wrap your car around a tree
maybe i'd be better
maybe in the morning we'll forget it
drink it down and sleep the rest off.
i can remember what you said through the fog
but it was something like "i never pictured us like this"
so maybe i'll be better off
i paint my way into a grey skyline
oh sweet neon.
i loved the way i had hope
what else did i ever need?

"Kill me
you did
But softly wasn’t in your vocabulary
Sporadic decisions haunt me now
Not understanding my flaws
Denying that I have none
You made me believe everything
And now what am I supposed to doubt?
Your liveliness
Was only comparable to
Your loveliness.
That I won’t doubt.
But your infectiousness
May disease me forever.
Parade your indecencies because you love the spotlight"

not only did i believe you
i had already assumed the worst
i'm only looking distance from a dead-end
i made a life saving catch one day
just to let it drop and fade away
"i'll be fine i promise"
but everything's now figured out
you found me out.
i'm in a sensation that lasted about 20 minutes
forget what i felt
how did it make you?

"You didn’t just make it
You were the confidence
In me
You were the plan
You were the extent
Let’s share our lives
It wouldn’t have originated by my own imagination
Pierce me again
I may just love it
Or so it would seem
I just can’t get away
Separation only goes so far
Mind is separate from body
Look to the future
To see nothing
Look to the past to see less
Lets share this smile that faded long ago
We never did this on purpose right?"

forgive me
i am not what i used to be
a storybook ending with the page ripped out
i colored out the pictures i didn't like
i'm a lot more spaced than what i used to be
but it could change in a second, you see
if i had the chance
i'd end it before you got to me.
i am not what i used to be
so for that, forgive me.

"Broken like an old accordion
You looked through my open tears
And didn’t bother a bit to patch them up
Rather spread them further
To get a better view
Not saying you used me or anything.
Cliché sayings get old though
And lets not forget about the time you almost escaped
Almost
Almost
Almost
And your own fear caught you and brought you back
Like a bounty hunter
You always were your own worst enemy"

and so now you know.

i never said i lost control

2008-11-17T19:15:00.000-08:00

forget everything i ever said before
i don't mean anything i say anymore.
it's just a fact of life--
when your head goes under
i am in passive mode.
you fast forwarded the good parts
now we're in the staring scene
awkwardly stammering what i actually mean
sift through the sand just to find my empty hands
you completely make me incomplete.
inadequacy at its finest.
simply put, i'm a wreck
and never having you is my worst mess
disarray.
when my phone is my only lifeline i'm hanging by a thread
it wouldn't make a difference if i hung my feelings on the fence
i cannot quit you.
once there was a time where everything made sense.
wait, scratch that.
i'm so unsure of myself
and you aren't helping
can you help it?
i don't think so.
you can't force what's not there
but fyi it's killing me.
it'd be better if you forgot my name and never wanted to see me again.
because i would have some closure.

and like a mummy, you unravel.

2008-11-05T16:53:00.000-08:00

i never thought you'd whittle away
let go and gain control
are you a loyalist or trader?
just give my life away
left a cryptic note on a napkin
said "if this is what i am, i don't wanna be me. and without you, i'm just..."
push away with all we were(n't)
baby-blue eyed motives and jones soda dreams
this victory is always bittersweet
i'm just fine
but my passenger seat 'aint.

so, now i know.

2008-11-02T17:59:00.000-08:00

the girl i've wanted for three years is unattainable.
but at least i know now.
so cal head in a mitten state of mind
reverse the damage
crash into her head just to be towed away.
i know the true feeling of what it means to be alone
i can't stand me
oh such stupidity
forget what you once knew baby blue
for you know not what you could do
what we could have been
i don't know
but at least i know.

mo
v
eo
n

untitled for once

2008-10-24T23:08:00.000-07:00

i am in love with how this is turning out.

"feel it out in your head, everything...."

miss flack, said i still want you back.

2008-10-19T19:33:00.000-07:00

you've got your innocent eyes
and i'm cliche'
distanced myself
but now my head's okay

three years and i'll never stop counting
and i wanted what i never had
self-esteem engine gone dry
my head is a cave-mural
you're the keyhole i look through
i can't believe my luck for once
what a catch, donnie
when i said i'd be fine i lied
but now i can say it straight
what a weekend can change
i wanna hold yr hand forever.

oh, is it love?

soul music aint just somethin you can fake

2008-10-09T21:11:00.000-07:00

i was just meaning to dip my feet and now my head is swimming.
i over commit and underestimate.
i am not what i think i am
i am not what i think i am.
i am not what i think i am.
keep dreaming
and
eventually
those dreams will
wear themselves

out. everything of human creation breaks overtime.

well-aware and well armed
i keep my charm at the bottom of my belt
simplified 'it's complicated'
i am at the bottom of the ocean counting the rest of my days
heart like an iron cage
cynicism of an older age
and i will never believe in anything ever again.
listen.

what?

kicking in the door that's always open

2008-09-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

i don't know what else to say except for i'm carved out of stone
"but for what we've become, we just feel more alone."
wrong direction
and sometimes birds fly north.
head pressed against your bedroom wall
just wanna hear you think about me
and when the clock hands double over on themselves
is the time when i've poured out my entire chest
i have mini-wars with myself every day
it's a long fight but in the end, it all stays the same
if beauty is only skin deep
then baby yours must have bled through
i can see myself cross the world for you

only i could have been this prehistoric
we grow a garden of certain inconsistency
and maybe i climbed the fence and didn't even know it
moonlighting just to see my only dream
so maybe this was a wrong done right
but i've been wrong before
i didn't notice when her head had fell apart
but hey, i've been wrong before
you know how i do...
we don't form a thought until noon
bring our drinks together to forget
that's always just a junkie fix.

"i'll be alone. you're feeling so lost and disillusioned"
it's all gonna make sense real soon.

intensity in ten cities.

2008-09-15T19:54:00.000-07:00

feel it out in your head, everything
just make sure someday you wear my ring
time is a mere accessory it seems
i won't give up on you unless you just happen forget me
i'll be here for a while
if i am what i am what do you want from me?
sometimes i wish my thoughts just made sense
under the influence of influence
a drunken dream boat headed for off-shore
i love them all but i love you more
i think i'm missing out
swing and a terrible hit
i am a front porch kid
asphyxiated on a chance i might never get
inherit a bad dream
and tell it to go to sleep
i just wanna breathe with you
and i just wanna stop breathing with you, too.

it's not over yet...it never is

2008-09-08T21:31:00.000-07:00

just pretend that you're alone
i know it's old
but it's the only song i've ever known
and it keeps singin to me
"once upon a hell..."
i'd rewind clocks
and hoped you couldn't ever tell
when something wasn't missing
something's always missing

put me in a place called heroin

2008-09-05T22:51:00.000-07:00

i'm young and whatever
please make her make my head feel better
is this time different?
does it all paint itself the same?
i'm no junkie but good god i need a fix
"i wanna wake up where you are"
put baby boy on the phone
and he'll tell you that i'm all alone
take that light and put it away
in a box and under your floorboard
next to all the old lust letters
and when you're ready love,
i'm here.

to you

2008-09-02T21:32:00.000-07:00

if you ever read this,
please know that it was love.

lalalament

2008-08-28T21:22:00.000-07:00

so we're love sick and plugging the hole with a party
i'm in love with whatever it is i started
distraught is a tire with a slow leak
we are at our most poignant when we say nothing at all
the way the tv screen lights your face
i'm not ever gonna put the pieces together on purpose
i wanna freeze the way i felt
you mean so much to me
lakes lap the shores in my head
makes me want to be at home in my skin
i just wanna be like you
but not at all
i don't ever want the pieces to fit.

"you can bow and pretend you don't know you're a legend..."

2008-08-27T19:04:00.000-07:00

it's all a different world today.
and i made inventions of pure spite
i'd love to say i am the embodiment of the midwest innocence
"summer love on a gurney with a squeaky wheel"
i've overdosed on myself before
in a foreign place but it always seems so similar.
i've crunched the numbers and i still can't figure myself out
fascinated with someone i don't know anymore.
i'm in love with my own sins, too.

is it weird that the blues can make you happy sometimes?

2008-08-14T21:19:00.000-07:00

no pressure, no forcing what's not there.
when i was young(and maybe i still am), i couldn't make decisons
and when i was short(oh i'm positive i still am), i couldn't see what it was like being happy over everyone's heads.
i have moved on but i still miss you.
does it make sense?
am i pathetic?
i'm afraid to know if you knew. you've probably never given me second thought.
still i'm rooted to this spot in my heart
the weeds have grown over where we stood.
remember that one time back in 2005?
you probably don't
i am a ghost
a poltergeist.
a shadow on your wall
tell me where i want to be. i have no idea anymore
you know that radio rock song they play over and over that gets stale around the corners?
it's like the story of my life in powerchord form.
but d'you still listen sometimes?
guilty pleasure anymore?
if you've ever read the lyrics
like, really read them
you'd put the needle to your head and hear me with you.
at least i cross my stars and count my change and hope to God that's what that record plays
it's the sweetest song ever made.
i am a slow brewed boy
not ready til the time is perfectly right
i can't seem to find my own time.
where is the charm that i used to have?
i never noticed it but you saw something in me.
i hope i didn't lose it in these clothes that i wear.
chisel me out of concrete in set myself to sleep
i am a song telling you to do your best played in reverse
i loved you til the day they put me in a hearse
oh shine, sun, shine
we'll all need a little light in a short time.
please listen to me:
i know you'll neve read this
but understand this.
i don't know what it is about you that keeps you in my mind locked and chained and the key went missing
but i cannot stand the fact that i was put to dry
and i want my time of day
and maybe sometimes down the road
it will be "i've always wanted us to be this way"
and when i was naive(sometimes i know a little bit) i used to think i could be with you
and when i was just a little insecure(and now i'm an open door with no knob and no lock) i couldn't imagine this ever working in a million years.
i hope someone can do something to me
fix me.

2008-08-09T21:56:00.000-07:00

oh my own ambiance
we lost whatever it was we had.
i'd hum myself a song if i knew it would help
a lot of good i've done for anyone else.
we are, we are, we are whatever it is we think we are

stay where i can see you

2008-08-07T00:23:00.000-07:00

if you ever drained the ocean
and saw what was on the bottom
you'd look like this too.
i've heard of a lot failures in my years
i guess everything happens for a reason.
if i finally hit my wall how do i bounce back?
i am disintegration in slow motion
we are the only light i ever see
a rags to riches to rags story
we all weep for the downfall
but no one ever notices the kids stuck on bottom
my tank is on empty
i want to love you and you have no idea.
i want to fuck you but my better mind battles me
i want you talk to me because i can't scrounge up my guts.

why do we always sing the saddest songs at the end?

i believe nostalgia will be the downfall of us all.

2008-07-12T20:44:00.000-07:00

everything seems so real now.
i'm teetering on my last days of my old life
i'm caught up in the heat of everything
it's a powerful thing you know:
to recognize and correct.
but it's so hard to do
when my whole life is on my chest.

i caught fire one summer day
and haven't burnt out since
one day i'll learn to love
just crest and fall
repeat
and do it again
i've lost myself and want to find anew.

under the summer rain

2008-06-24T00:18:00.000-07:00

i've locked and loaded all the words i won't ever say
pointed them at my own head cuz it's my only demise.
dance and explode.
criss cross paths and meet somewhere where i've never been.
i'm so shocked and understood.
we starve for the approval of everyone
knowing that no one understood
the story unfolds and the stone is chipped away
for i'm my on my own now son,
you should have never listened to a word i said
and everyone i can come to terms with in my head
won't feel the way i do
unless they change their entire tune to the key just flat of being content
i ran a hundred miles in my head
i've counted every star in the sky
i can't believe all the things that have happened to me
but can believe why
i'm a comet that collides with your hips
a star that never shone as bright as the day we intertwined
and is duller now for it.
i cannot forget all the ones who loved me
because they're the best thing that's ever happened to my pathetic story
god bring all my friends to glory

"i'd sing my insides out for you."

lights out in the house of the rising sun

2008-06-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

the truth is.
i'm not sure of where my heart is
see this girl
had it a long time ago.
and didn't ever tell me where it went.
though i'm not complaining yet,
i just would like to move on
paper mache confidence
mixed feelings and drinks.
i can't drown my worst feeling out.
water logged with love
or a lack thereof.
i'm always in a rush to nowhere inparticular
i'm feeling out my own end
can't compress all these thoughts into words
and you just aren't you anymore.
can't seem to pull everything together
probably because i don't know where anything is.
i need to know why i'm here
i'm a boy who's lost his sense of home.
i want all my old friends back
tombstone.

some things i'll never know...

2008-06-05T20:31:00.000-07:00

i run the world in the palm of my hand.
i sink ships and wash bones up on shore.

i am punch drunk with infatuation.
tanked on love.
started back from square one again
this circle never ends, does it...

and like the mountaineer ignores all the mountains,
and the coast dwellers are blind to the sea,
i picked you out from a crowded room,
darlin won't you marry me?

i'm guessing this is growing up

2008-05-27T19:39:00.000-07:00

so far i've come to this:

i dream in black in white
got an outdated imagination
but i do with what i have
cause glory be to nostalgia
a hymn to better times (or so we all thought)
i vaguely remember having shot at love
i missed, but maybe things are changing
"i'll be your summer song and you can be my weak knees."
long live your beauty
it deserves parades
and red carpets
but you're not that kind of skirt.
organic love
from the heart
and all yours, still

after all this time.

sunshot.

2008-05-18T20:49:00.000-07:00

even the devil runs on hallelujah mornings.

from nothing at all, ashes even, he rises

2008-05-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

it's the end of the world party but i've got some aspirin for tomorrow
i'm long lost and not sure how far
cry yourself to hell,
you are my awkward pause...
always on and never off.
except for all the time
can't grant any wishes but someday i'll make you cry
oh the one that got away

this felt like kicking it old school.

the hamadryad

2008-05-15T19:50:00.000-07:00

"we are all made of the same stuff, remember, we of the jungle, and you of the city. the same substance composes us--the tree overhead, the stone beneath us, the star--we are all one, all moving to the same end...bird and beast and stone and star-- we are all one, all one--child and serpent, star and stone--all one."

the crest of summer

2008-05-04T19:21:00.000-07:00

i love it all
and you can have me
just as soon as i've died inside
chase a butterfly dream with wishkeeping nets
i'm not at all phased
just like garden babies with flower crowns
it's an idea that won't ever let me down
i'm growing older but feeling the same
i can't wait to change to a new everyday
i am the sun
your light and shining monster
love like vines
snare your golden lips to mine
and maybe someday, one day, everything will be fine

"and you say chi-city...

i'm coming home again"

faux pas

2008-05-01T21:20:00.000-07:00

when life is a shining sea
and your legs are sinking ships
your honorable mention friends will leave you in the end
but you know who is your lighthouse

i meant the world imploded

2008-04-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

i'm amazed every single day
you are controlled mania
been ripping the sheets off when i sleep
can't remember a single dream
i'm a distant second to anything worth mentioning
maybe memories, but probably pretend
we're all in a race where we don't win in the end
you are my house
and i just wanna go home
i'm in no position to change
what would i even be anyway?
not sure who i am
but what's new

if you are my star i want to never stop wishing

los angeles massacre

2008-04-18T20:18:00.000-07:00

i've got a jar of dirt
took it from your folks' old house
to remind me of the days that i always missed out on
o paper bones;
don't ever let me down
one day i'll shut my eyes and wish real hard
and put a penny in quarter wish-well
get myself a quick fix cuz i'm not that damaged anyway
right?
i am insufficient.
lock my head with a billion different keys
lost the one that ever really mattered to me
and so my story goes
and so we all grow old
baby blues and beautiful browns
bright eyed and articulate
i bet the florida moon is the same as this one
and you still look no different
you are insufficient

you're a star
you're a star
you're a star
keep shining

------
i've got writers block.
i hate everything i write
i can't stomach me

art or television

2008-04-15T20:10:00.000-07:00

eggshells and upturned nails is where i've been walking lately
and running through my mind is you
had a good idea but lost it
and every single line i ever crossed
i meant it
all that glitters is not gold
gotta trunk filled half-way with with life
roll my dice
I gamble with everyones money but mine

asleep at the wheel

2008-04-14T20:09:00.000-07:00

woah, waiting for the breakdown.

nothing feels good being under the gun

a toast to you, _. you alone make it all _.

2008-04-11T20:24:00.000-07:00

so sip your red rum
with your green stained knees
a wide-eyed brown in a summer dress
never made me feel like me before.

oh, and so much more.

i'm gonna represent where i'm from...

2008-04-02T00:33:00.000-07:00

what if what were on your wrist determined who you were?
polygamy isn't just for shapes anymore.
i am articulate but only half-hearted.
and clouds can't cover everything you're hiding.
we aren't stars but more like constellations.
my entire posse shines.
roller coaster guts and lead hearts and single sipped drinks
a celebrity lifestyle.
i am spilled over the side.
you are reasons to do what we do.
I lock up buttons and trash and leave jewels where they don't belong.
i am only one piece but I have been bent and shaped
love only loved itself so love can go love 'fuckoff.'
i had a heroin dream and it scared the hell outta me.
i could amount to nothing and it scares the hell outta me.
i am your faulty respirator
no wonder you look so blue...

things have changed for me, that's okay. i still feel the same.

2008-03-25T14:05:00.000-07:00

let me tell you a story:
a baby-faced demeanor
he's extraordinary on the inside
but so socially sub-par.
most of his time spent somewhere
where's he indeed a king
an imagination
a garden of eden of sorts.
there he's a genius of his own design
a casanova
an entrepreneur
he paves the way to anywhere
with a shovel tongue and cemented wit
he has a way with anyone who looks
the certain spark
the hurrah in your voice
the kind of look you toast to
statues will be erected
and banners will be waved
babies will be kissed on any given day.
the day he dies is the day there's a parade of flowers
and trailing the silver casket will be gold
it's a celebration
of a life not lost, but on the other hand won
lift that boy up to the sun
cause it's exactly where he belongs
lie a lantern with him
in case he loses his way
love him like he was your equal
cause that's all he ever wanted to be.

aurora borealis

2008-03-17T18:31:00.000-07:00

i don't shine so bright.

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sunday drive with a hairpin turn
turbulence.
masochism.
permanently vexed.
tear storms.
an empty center
a broken "something"
titanic guts
voices that won't sing
unstable mountains
rock solid regrets
arrestable offenses
bone dry bawling
habeas corpus
iron cages and paper lungs
a well owed apology.
"sometimes you don't know how much you hurt my heart"

et quand je rentre à la maison, parfois il ne se sent plus comme lui.

------------------
i'm so sorry.

be there, or be relatively box-ish...

2008-03-13T11:02:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna deteriorate from soul to bone
leaving my skin to speak
cause it'll take all i have
to conceal what's underneath
(dreams and inconsistencies)
an ode: to what you'll never see
i'd rather just never come home
than ever see the end
of what we're all doing here
because simply put;
we're all gonna disappear.

if you're never let down when do you know when yr up?

2008-02-29T19:59:00.000-08:00

glory hallelujah
i'm the king of shit
a pension for perjury
a two step in the wrong direction
yet my dark demand attention
a kind of bittersweet intervention
toast to being alive
or to just being in the right place
and doing the right line
sick of looking for shit i can't find
i attract all the wrong attention
from all the greatest of the worst
i'm a distant first
crown me attentive
and i won't show
call me brave
and i'll back down

all i want is someone beside me

geriatricly young gun

2008-01-25T21:46:00.000-08:00

it's a little easier to say what i wanna when my tongue's loosened up.
but this charm juice is wearing off
i'm not just 'a little' lost
oh,
and this atomosphere around my neck
is keeping all of you in check
and the bankrolls comin in
but it's always wearing thin

i'm still awake
a baby boy's dreams aren't finished
when you pick the lock and let them out the back
morally wrong but generally oh-so-right
we'll have us a champagne jam tonight
the lids under her eyes paint a different picture
i imagined van gogh and got monet
fuck it i feel like i shine
deny deny deny
but i've got it all and all is mine
lost a fortune but she's enough gold
someone forty nined it first

lost in a landfill
woke up in michigan

runnin

2008-01-16T20:25:00.000-08:00

and i wonder if they'll laugh when i'm dead.
misery loves you.
"for a chance to be with you, i'd gladly risk it all"
i jump and claw to the top to find myself in the middle
being in a two star feels like you're a 5 star celeb sometimes.
everyone knows yr business
but you don't know they know
but i know
i won't leave this window 'til you kiss me away
an intimate hand in hand
is what i've always planned
but that all goes without saying.
want to buy some confidence. have disparity and pretentiousness to trade
best offer takes me home to you.

"You grow, we all grow, we're made to grow. You either evolve or disappear."

2008-01-03T21:44:00.000-08:00

cut the existential cord
i'm done with it all
well for now.

i wanna die and come back
reappear in a blaze of glory
and then show 'em all how to live

what do you say when dreamer doesn't cover it?
i'm delirious i suppose
i'm at large with the way i don't ever let my guard down/out
i'm aiming fr yrs
it's not over tonight
it's not over tonight
it's never over tonight
it's not over any night.

why does it happen to you?
you deserve it all.

troubled with the tv on

2007-12-19T20:03:00.000-08:00

slow pitch and miss
i can't get anything right.
missing everyone is a bitch
especially when they're still here.
three years and i haven't done anything
worth showing
it's all hidden on the internet
so no one can see.
i don't even know if this can count
but it does to me
tied my faith around a desperation tree
hopefully it'll come back to me
my sense of self importance that is.
a pond is as deep as an ocean if only your head's goin under.

whateversworse

2007-12-10T13:41:00.000-08:00

come over here with your axe
i've said it all wrong again
don't kill the messenger
cause it's all my fault in the end
anyway
i'd love to make you happy
if i could only make myself
i don't wanna put it that way
but so does everybody else
"when i'm home alone i just dance by myself"
set sails for freedom
hit shore short
i've messed up completely
and my wishes are a joke

life's just an act and i'm only a stagehand.

smitten with the mitten

2007-12-02T20:10:00.000-08:00

i never meant to stay this way
only kissers in a lovers' game
and hopeless kids in hopeful heads
couldn't dare to dream a better end.

and death slides close to me

2007-12-02T16:40:00.000-08:00

a doctors' word is as good as his scalpel.
i'm feeling dull.
most likely to be infamous.
sew myself some dignity
i gotta keep warm somehow.
i've got a bet with the moon that stars don't mean shit
only when it's you wishing.
brisk is the new greeting
cold is the new hello.
recycled boys take out golden trash
i'm not a real boy
but hoping to be.

my nose is growing.

law & order another

2007-11-29T19:50:00.000-08:00

i'm so tired but i can't sleep in or rest my head
i can't shut myself off
my switch is broken
frozen like a caveman and i've no heat to my name
i'm nervous
they're watching
or are they?
i'm a fixer with no tools
i'm water with no pool
put me where i belong
i'd swallow you whole
if you weren't looking.

spilling over the sides
with a hand across yr thigh
i'm just here with all my friends
and we're just here for the end
to watch it go
draw your eyes slow
'cross the room with everyone in it
so he said, she said
"well one day we'll all be dead"
but until then
i've got it all in my pen
and in my hands
you've eyes the size of the world
cause that's what i see in 'em.
be a man, boy.

happy 50th

2007-11-20T19:05:00.000-08:00

post that is.

too happy to cry but just too sad to care
moon rocks in my pockets cuz our heads are out of orbit
i'm not a star anymore
we live for open doors
moreso fr whtvr cms nxt
successfully failing
on track to derail
i think you've got magnets on yr hips
cause i can't keep myself away
im in love with the way that i could be in love
i can't seem to forget it tho
love is patient
love is kind
what do they know

th snd n yr blnkt

2007-11-08T18:37:00.000-08:00

i hear voices, but i'm not listening
telling me who i am and who i should be
a movie plays out in yr head
only to get a one star review in gossip bibles
i dono nymr.
i take vowels out sometimes so you can fill in the blanks
in my sentences and my passenger seat
oh how'd i'd love a night alone.
i'm a fragment to a story only everyone tells
upstairs kids hoping for wedding bells
i'm a cheap copy, a poor interpretation
i'm concretely incomplete.
butjustfornow.
---------------------
i wrote this awhile ago.
fun to look back.

had a falling out again, with myself and i.
told him to pack his shit and go.
said "they'll never split us apart"
look at us now.
caught a hold of myself, but i'm pretty sure it was bad throw
head is swimming, but my gut is sinking
i hoped you choked
but just so i could save you
we've got nothing but time on our hands
and smiles on our faces
sophomore slump is over, now we're junior disasters
soon to be senior failures.
i lost friends this year, but i gained way more.
totally not the type of people i'd imagine myself with
but that's the best part.

i wouldn't normally do this...

2007-11-06T19:33:00.000-08:00

but...

A
L I
G H T
H O U S E
H A S A
B E A C
O N O F
L I G H
T T H A
T G U I
D E S U
S A L L
W H E R
E W E N
E E D T
O GO, B E
C A U S E W
E C A N N O T
A L W AY S S E E
W H E R E W E H A V E B E E N
O R W H E R E W E A R E G O I N G

and now my grandmama aint the only girl callin me baby

2007-11-05T18:43:00.000-08:00

don't call home
cause i made friends with ignore
and he don' wanna talk to you no more.
we're stagnant motion, we don't make any sense
we're kids who don't love you anymore, but my waist is on the fence
stop and go, take it slow, but i didn't seem to mind
just a stowaway boy, use when you're in need
i purposely make an ass of myself, and then i virtually hang myself for it
i can't make mistakes when no one's watching
i break routine like husbands break vows
breaking my own back
i'm eating myself alive
stress is getting to me
or maybe it's me
but i don't know anymore
but what do i know
i can make a bad decision like everyones business
and don't you forget.

showcase: sundown

2007-10-28T21:02:00.001-07:00

some people have poetic moments, imagine those never shutting off.
my life feels like that sometimes, and without love i'd be better off
I can't stop thinking about how I'll never make it out alive
then i break our and show some signs
of improvement
i'm a two-star boy with four-star dreams
and how many other people think these same exact things

lay your weapons down cause you can't stop me now

2007-10-27T10:53:00.000-07:00

i've made out with lips and cash.
runaway boy, with all your dignity in tow
i'm a thief is so many ways.
we've drifted off so many cliffs in so few days
i'm a product endorsement for cowardice.
i can't step up to the plate
but it's not necessarily that way
so much self doubt that i could shoot everyones dreams, including my own
and just say "that's how it goes"
so that's just how it goes.

modern marvels

2007-10-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

we're all just pine boxes waiting to be filled
lined with all the dreams we were just too scared to run after.
lives like iambic pentameter, we're all just stressed and unstressed.
i could give you anything, all you gotta do is slide off that pretty lil dress
so i'm not mr. subtle, but I don't apologize anymore
cause what do I have left to hide
look inside me and there's cobwebs and an uneasy heart
but it's mine, and it's all i've got left
never thought i'd get you off my chest.

sometimesyoujustwant more.

2007-10-21T00:18:00.000-07:00

but you can't have any.
dangle it above your head and move it away
a child's game, but i'm not above that
you played that way, now it's my turn

we all need a hand to hold, but not one to sleight.
a shoulder to rest and not to be shrugged
a head we can swim in but not get lost in their thoughts
we need a someone, anyone
keep me warm and i won't give you away

we're just eyes in keyholes, waiting to get in
but we'll never stop pretending that our hearts haven't given in.
we need a shot at l(ust)ove for once.

i feel like gold[plated]

"just keep a hold of me and don't let go"

2007-10-14T19:04:00.000-07:00

I cant keep my mouth shut but i got so much to say
but I said the wrong thing so maybe another day.
im not a firm believer in anything solid
Im a dreamer, what can i say
hopeless romantic for the hopelessly frantic
anyone needs everyone, and the same in reverse
he has your attention, but I got there first.
but you didn't pay me my dues, because I say stupid things
now I'll just hope for a one night drunken fling
I can't seem to impress you, or make the right moves
my head is a heart attack, I'm bruised and confused
I wish I had your freedom.

daring and bold to be shy and cowardly

2007-10-12T19:53:00.000-07:00

i'm just a step away from being you.
vices and sins are in
and you wear 'em well.
I dono what's right anymore
I just wanna fit in
and not worry 'bout the repercussions.
don't you dare fade away on me now
I couldn't bear the thought of being alone
even tho I already am in a sense.
I get me for me and you for what you're trying to be
break outta yr shell, that I understand
but why do it with such a sleighted hand?
but that's just how we do

i love my itouch

2007-10-11T09:14:00.000-07:00

and it loves me.

"i know i'll never die alone cuz of all of you"

2007-10-07T19:50:00.000-07:00

i'm different, in the same kind of way
my life is an endless amount of saturdays.
put all my chips in on what i thought could happen
they called my bluff
i'll keep on lying until im lying for good
seconds are just a matter of time
i've been bad, but i do it so good
i'm not moving on cause i need to
i'm just bored of being so miserable
i wanna make irresponsible choices
for once in my life
i've been the peacemaker, the pacesetter
now i wanna sit in the back and throw spitwads
lets move and shake whatever we have
until we find the gold underneath.
"my friends are a different breed
my friends are everything...."

there's a thousand yous, and only one of me

2007-09-16T13:30:00.000-07:00

i wrote myself in confidence but i let my secret out
but i swear by the moon and stars and your wrecked car
that i am in denial, and all you've got's the bottle
and i swear that i'll write a song about my hometown
and all my friends

so watch your back

new faces, old faces, and the awkwardness inbetween

2007-09-03T20:44:00.000-07:00

if you present coal and call it gold, would the world stop to look?
or are you as human as you appear to be?
it's like the last day of freedom
we progress to confess
that we're not as human as we appear to be
do what you have to
to be all that he doesn't see
or at least i hope it goes that way
1 round and without a fight
you're a hope that won't see the light
it's too bad we aren't all great like you
i'm a california sky away from getting there

moderation is the key to the mundane

2007-08-29T21:41:00.000-07:00

if i start on this, lord knows i couldn't stop
the poet in me wouldn't ever let me be happy
funny how poets usually starve
they can't make rent
'cuz words don't get you through anymore
making a living requires suit and tie these days
we killed our own creativity

i can't go for long on these legs i have
they'll carry this heart 'til they break
not gonna tear you down this time. no, i've got a better head
at least for this entry; the next one and you're dead.
money makes the world turn, kinda like that soap
but whatever happened to actions and phrases?

yours in misbehaving,

a freshman to this sophomore slump, a junior to a senior failure

2007-08-22T19:25:00.000-07:00

i've got a god complex but no one to rule.
a good shot but lacking a place to aim
i can't even holster this enigmatic feeling
but i'm done with being nothing, let's start something
i've got lighter fluid if you've got the match.
so here we go, under the covers
starting with the clothes, we're tearing each other
down to the nuts and bolts of an operation much bigger than you or i
or even we
we've got so many things to get past, but i can't seem to adjust
you've got your sense of self, and i've got my lust
and not much else at this point

here's to hoping for more than what we're offered.xx

fortune, fame, and platnium records: every boys dream.

2007-08-08T21:54:00.000-07:00

"and i've cast a spell over the midwest to make you think of me."

i guess i was never good at magic.
i'm in your head, i've made a mess, i'm the hole in your sweet tooth
do you remember the way i told you how i felt about you? neither do i.
it's not a question of who or if, or even a wonder why
it's my lack of smooth moves and self confidence.
so take it a notch below 'hatred', but stop before 'jealousy'
[ cue your car being one with a tree]
i paved the way for me, cause there aint nobody else.
and that's how i got this shirt saying 'i slept with me, and and now look at myself'

♥-cause you know what that means.

stickup [stuck on you]

2007-08-04T18:25:00.000-07:00

how could you miss something you never had?
i was under the impression that you couldn't.
you learn something new everyday.
nobody loves the almost-heroes, the second-in commands
it's glory that rises above the slighted hands
shaky voices and unsure whispers
of "how could you do this to me?"
i told you what i wasn't, and what i was sorry for
and it's all i have left
stand in the rain cause it's a familiar feeling
of being outside of your window, wishing to come in
but let's get it together, if only for a second
he has a better chance and he doesn't even know it
or maybe he does.
carve a name into a tree, next to the will [k]nots and won't do's.
scars and cars, you've heard it all before
but i'm about to bring it to your front door.

you're way too beautiful girl, that's why it'll never work...

2007-07-24T23:02:00.000-07:00

a casual mess, a lighthearted distress
and a head too big for its brain.
used to put it all on the line, but that's too hard
is it over yet? all i have are stories and scars
isn't it obvious? i never said it
but if i did, i would sure as hell have meant it
i'm another reason
to douse the fire in your eyes
chalk it up to many
i never said this hurts
but i've contemplated plenty
but i might be in luck
but this time, my words are not enough

even though the blames on you, i'll take that blame from you

2007-07-19T21:44:00.000-07:00

if i apologize for being wrong, for the things i did and didn't do, maybe it'll be different

i'm sorry for being a terrible son
i'm sorry for myself for not being your one
i'm sorry for the things i didn't say
i'm sorry for not telling you how i really felt
i'm sorry for being the prince of terrible things
im sorry for killing yours and my dreams
i'm sorry for the awkward situations that never let me say
"i'm sorry for feeling this way"
i'm sorry for making things hard
i'm sorry for making it easy
i'm sorry for never being there for myself
i'm sorry for being blind to love
i'm sorry it never let me in
i'm sorry for late night drives that made you cry
i'm sorry for not living while i'm alive
i'm sorry, i'll make up for it next time.

going on a limb with no sure way to land...

2007-07-15T21:00:00.001-07:00

demeaning in the sense of guns at your sides, you might as well fire at will
aim for the head, at least put them out of your misery.
all you do is talk, talk, talk, but you've seemed to forget to walk
or stand, for that matter
so here's you sincere apology:
"i'm so sorry you're not wrapped around a tree"
everything's an ache for your head, but you're a pain my ass.
just breathe while you still got it, i'm about to take it away
with these words that i've got, none of them could make you stay.

a word that kind of rhymes with 'glove',

"don't wanna be a boy but wanna be a man"

2007-07-13T20:49:00.000-07:00

hanging on every word, and i'm getting pushed off.
you're crossing every line, but this time i'll draw a wall
wish i could mutter a word like harry potter and make everything better
"lumos" my day and "expelliarmus" your heart.
together we can move mountains
now i'm down to throwing rocks
and i'm aiming at everything that ever meant anything to you.
they say 'big girls don't cry', but i'm trying my best to bust that myth
i'm adam and jamie in every sense of the phrase.
you know, the one that pays off.
i'd scream at you if i could, but what is there to say
except for "i never had you anyway"

love, and all the baggage that's with it

FW:

2007-07-06T01:28:00.001-07:00

Don't write me off if you haven't got any ink of your own to do it with.

"You’re sleeping with the light on like you’re dying to be found out."

2007-07-06T00:55:00.000-07:00

i'm sick of taking hits, i want to write them.
paper hearts being burned for warmth.
holding out for what's not worth your time
for my best friends and your secrets
i'll find myself in your head again
just longing to be someone else
i'm not all there cause you've got a piece of me still
i'm all wrong ; starting with you
and all the guns you've had to my head
my best friend
are the blankets and sheets that you once used
they keep me close and heavy thoughts at bay
i loved everything about you that wont make it out alive
we're kissing for good luck and not much else.

you know i do,

"and you've got the spark i've been looking for"

2007-07-02T21:19:00.000-07:00

i wasn't the first kid to write about hearts, cars, or sinking heads with matching stomaches.
nor will i be the last.
i wasn't the first to dream of hitting the west coat
i wasn't the first to bathe in city lights
i don't do it best
i'm not a trendsetter
i'm not the man of your dreams
i'm not the only boy with problems
i don't have a great character

but i'm a heart of gold and a head full of ideas

Multimedia message

2007-06-30T23:14:00.001-07:00

Dear you and nobody listening: never stay between the rode and the ones less traveled

can't believe what belief means to believers anymore

2007-06-24T20:33:00.000-07:00

not a hell of a lot.
if i took your head where i wanted it to go
we'd be on the road for days.
no one would ever find us
let's gets married to our inhibitions
we'll never cross the line in the sand if you never draw it
i'd cradle your head, pick you up off the bathroom floor
baby you can't let the booze do this anymore
i've got a glove box full of angry words and trunk full of regrets
but i'd drive it off the nearest cliff if it brought me to you
the crowd doesn't love you when you're off your knees
but i might see potential.
do you know what you're getting into?
if so please let me know
brain is on a strike, can't agree with the heart
if i could fit in a mailbox i'd send myself to you
todays forecast: partly desperate with a chance of redemption
you're a nerd and my head is a comic book convention
you're always on my mind
wish it went both ways

"i can't seem to shake this awful feeling..."

2007-06-22T21:37:00.001-07:00

It's late. better than forever i never say. the only things that should tie you down are ropes and states of mind. but this way of thinking involves rings and "i do's." i could die with[out] you. i'll never learn my lesson and you'll never learn your place. what's love got to do with it anyway.

"how do i look?" "like gold."

2007-06-20T23:26:00.001-07:00

I can't fucking sleep.
i'm the soundtrack to your right now. but i'm the record you never bought.
tried to make you laugh but i'm the joke you never caught
'the boy with a million problems' is what you could say
but you've gotta be the same goddamn way.
i'd never live it down if you weren't
i'm not exactly him
and i won't ever be
tongues of stone rests on glass jaws[which one will break first]
we could play the field, but neither of us have great arms
so why don't you and i and me and you settle this between sheets?

sink a heart and steal a ship
lovingyouiseasycauseyou'rebeautiful

cats out of the bag, get the box.

2007-06-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

so maybe i let one person know about this. it's healthy, right?
it puts me out into fresh air, but i think i'm hanging out to dry.
can't sleep, i'm on this high
it consists of dreaming and sleeping; but just so i can dream of you.
it's corny, but what the hell isn't anymore
i'm the boring conversation, the awkward pause between words.
here's to many more to come[or so one hopes]
i'll keep you a secret if you let me
not a soul will know, even if they test me
but it's all up how you sigh and shrug.
or dodge my eyes when you talk
stuck in america--but who wants to get out

we're out of the woods now, let's burn it to the ground

2007-06-15T21:27:00.000-07:00

i'm sure i made an impression
but i know it's always gonna be the wrong one.
i was sure that it didn't graze me
but this heart--it weighs a ton.
we all know how it goes
but we don't know how it ends.
you build yourself up into this gigantic wall
i'm bringing the bulldozers with me this time
they're in the form of secrets and cries for help
ones that you'll never hear.
i guess it's the 'tortured artist' in me
but who's to say i don't torture back.
i'd sure love to leave you hanging once
like this boy, you left him like laundry [wrap your head around that]
i'm cancer in human form
don't get too close to me
i hate the phone, but please call me
i'll talk to you all night long if it gets you beside me.
you can visit me in prison.
cause that's where they wanna send me.
but i won't go down like a sinking ship
i won't go down at all.

you.can't.touch.me.

love,

re: trading moon for sun, actions forwards

2007-06-12T20:02:00.001-07:00

with all these cheap words, i've got to be a least a dollar short.
and given the stakes
i'd trade you for the world.
and deal with the opportunity costs.
drowned my self pity
held it's head under water.
now i'm out for blood--or love.
i'm not sure which.
for a sweetheart, you sure taste sour.
i died that night
on the roof of my house with you.
i'm the in the business of selling yourself, business is great.

L-word,

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2007-06-11T22:32:00.001-07:00

I have a purple heart, but for what it really is. a shade darker than blue.

"in which the sun shines and we learn what happened to the whipping boy, the prince, and everyone else"

2007-06-08T22:27:00.000-07:00

i'm the itch in your scar, the crash in your car. and every single word you say adds a bullet to my resume (and sometimes my head).
it's odd how words have a choke hold on me.
street songs sing me to sleep
through highways and streetlights.
get me out of this town.
you look good in a moonlight kind of way.
i'm half past goodbyes at the price of giving in and bowing out(and i wish you were here)
i'm a wreck and hope you are too.

love,

"this is the last time i'm gonna let her do this to me"

2007-06-02T21:27:00.000-07:00

i have no fucking clue why i do this.
put my own gun to my own head and sink my own ship.
i beat myself up over you, my insides are bruised
last year it was a toll i couldn't bear to pay
this year, it's no different, except it's your fucking face.
i hate to look at you
but love to think of you
we're making up, and making out [and i'm talking in more ways than one]
and i've got a bet with your car window that says: i love you more than he does.

truefuckingwhoknows.

who needs love when all the hate is here?

2007-05-28T18:33:00.000-07:00

people don't change but have two faces.
i see a new one everday
i'm a hometown hero made villian.
made infamous with words behind my back
i'm a dead shot, but always off.
you're a sure bet, but i'm a loss.
to the love that never made it past pen or keyboard,
to the hearts that are made stone and carved in to you.
to kids like us,
to liars and fakes.
to trainwreck romances and desperate last chances.
to wearing hearts on your sleeves like a fashion statement.
to the times that you almost gave up
but the pen had saved a life.
to every boy that ever felt like this.

love,

my chest was beating, the last time i checked...

2007-05-24T15:06:00.001-07:00

updating from the phone again, watching talk shows.
just thinking about being okay makes it okay , if only for a little while.
build a bridge and burn it.
don't worry kid, you've earned it.
you don't look a day over headaches and "i dont cares."

truefuckinglove. if only to someone in particular

sixteen forever (til we turn seventeen)

2007-05-23T19:43:00.001-07:00

i've been on my own so long, it's the only thing i do know how to do.
guess i'll just throw you into the ditch of my mind, throw some dirt on your chest.
try to bury you from my memory. not like we had any to start.
i'm a last chance, the last stop.
you never gave me the time
he loves pushing you down
you get back up again
one of these days he'll hit a homer.
i'm a golden boy with plastic plating.
give.me.a.chance.

love,

Multimedia message (from yours truly)

2007-05-23T18:31:00.001-07:00

it's always the nights that you don't miss, i'm the prince of feeling like this.

just crowned king.

we're bad habits with good reputations

2007-05-22T19:57:00.000-07:00

no one will ever read this.

and that's ok.

sometime this home isn't a home. sometimes you're not you and i'm not me. alcohol does it for you, it's anyones guess what's in it for me.
i'm around to see you smile, and i hate to see you leave.
but the things i've felt a beating heart wouldn't believe.
you don't exactly have a name or face, you could be anyone.
but you're not.
you're an accident in my head, and it looks like a 50 car pile up.
the more eyeliner you put on is just that much more he can make run off.
call it teenage hormones, call it what you wish.
please, call it something.
i'm a ship, and with every word you say i get a sinking feeling.
i don't have the heart nor guts to tell you how i feel.
my insides are hollow, but you know how that goes.

i'll be your summer song and you can be my weak knees.

love,

and when i come home, something doesn't feel like home

blue carpet baby

oh, hello glory

gearheaded

pipe dreams with teflon seals of love

reboot. rest. repeat.

living through y(our)selves.

only get lonely when you read the charts.

"doing lines of dust and sweat..."

i am memory lost

i never said i lost control

and like a mummy, you unravel.

so, now i know.

untitled for once

miss flack, said i still want you back.

soul music aint just somethin you can fake

kicking in the door that's always open

intensity in ten cities.

it's not over yet...it never is

put me in a place called heroin

to you

lalalament

"you can bow and pretend you don't know you're a legend..."

is it weird that the blues can make you happy sometimes?

stay where i can see you

i believe nostalgia will be the downfall of us all.

under the summer rain

lights out in the house of the rising sun

some things i'll never know...

i'm guessing this is growing up

sunshot.

from nothing at all, ashes even, he rises

the hamadryad

the crest of summer

faux pas

i meant the world imploded

los angeles massacre

art or television

asleep at the wheel

a toast to you, _____. you alone make it all _____.

i'm gonna represent where i'm from...

things have changed for me, that's okay. i still feel the same.

aurora borealis

be there, or be relatively box-ish...

if you're never let down when do you know when yr up?

geriatricly young gun

runnin

"You grow, we all grow, we're made to grow. You either evolve or disappear."

troubled with the tv on

whateversworse

smitten with the mitten

and death slides close to me

law & order another

happy 50th

th snd n yr blnkt

i wouldn't normally do this...

and now my grandmama aint the only girl callin me baby

showcase: sundown

lay your weapons down cause you can't stop me now

modern marvels

sometimesyoujustwant more.

"just keep a hold of me and don't let go"

daring and bold to be shy and cowardly

i love my itouch

"i know i'll never die alone cuz of all of you"

there's a thousand yous, and only one of me

new faces, old faces, and the awkwardness inbetween

moderation is the key to the mundane

a freshman to this sophomore slump, a junior to a senior failure

fortune, fame, and platnium records: every boys dream.

stickup [stuck on you]

you're way too beautiful girl, that's why it'll never work...

even though the blames on you, i'll take that blame from you

going on a limb with no sure way to land...

"don't wanna be a boy but wanna be a man"

FW:

"You’re sleeping with the light on like you’re dying to be found out."

"and you've got the spark i've been looking for"

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can't believe what belief means to believers anymore

a toast to you, _. you alone make it all _.