is it weird that the blues can make you happy sometimes?

no pressure, no forcing what's not there.
when i was young(and maybe i still am), i couldn't make decisons
and when i was short(oh i'm positive i still am), i couldn't see what it was like being happy over everyone's heads.
i have moved on but i still miss you.
does it make sense?
am i pathetic?
i'm afraid to know if you knew. you've probably never given me second thought.
still i'm rooted to this spot in my heart
the weeds have grown over where we stood.
remember that one time back in 2005?
you probably don't
i am a ghost
a poltergeist.
a shadow on your wall
tell me where i want to be. i have no idea anymore
you know that radio rock song they play over and over that gets stale around the corners?
it's like the story of my life in powerchord form.
but d'you still listen sometimes?
guilty pleasure anymore?
if you've ever read the lyrics
like, really read them
you'd put the needle to your head and hear me with you.
at least i cross my stars and count my change and hope to God that's what that record plays
it's the sweetest song ever made.
i am a slow brewed boy
not ready til the time is perfectly right
i can't seem to find my own time.
where is the charm that i used to have?
i never noticed it but you saw something in me.
i hope i didn't lose it in these clothes that i wear.
chisel me out of concrete in set myself to sleep
i am a song telling you to do your best played in reverse
i loved you til the day they put me in a hearse
oh shine, sun, shine
we'll all need a little light in a short time.
please listen to me:
i know you'll neve read this
but understand this.
i don't know what it is about you that keeps you in my mind locked and chained and the key went missing
but i cannot stand the fact that i was put to dry
and i want my time of day
and maybe sometimes down the road
it will be "i've always wanted us to be this way"
and when i was naive(sometimes i know a little bit) i used to think i could be with you
and when i was just a little insecure(and now i'm an open door with no knob and no lock) i couldn't imagine this ever working in a million years.
i hope someone can do something to me
fix me.