law & order another

i'm so tired but i can't sleep in or rest my head
i can't shut myself off
my switch is broken
frozen like a caveman and i've no heat to my name
i'm nervous
they're watching
or are they?
i'm a fixer with no tools
i'm water with no pool
put me where i belong
i'd swallow you whole
if you weren't looking.


spilling over the sides
with a hand across yr thigh
i'm just here with all my friends
and we're just here for the end
to watch it go
draw your eyes slow
'cross the room with everyone in it
so he said, she said
"well one day we'll all be dead"
but until then
i've got it all in my pen
and in my hands
you've eyes the size of the world
cause that's what i see in 'em.
be a man, boy.

happy 50th

post that is.


too happy to cry but just too sad to care
moon rocks in my pockets cuz our heads are out of orbit
i'm not a star anymore
we live for open doors
moreso fr whtvr cms nxt
successfully failing
on track to derail
i think you've got magnets on yr hips
cause i can't keep myself away
im in love with the way that i could be in love
i can't seem to forget it tho
love is patient
love is kind
what do they know

th snd n yr blnkt

i hear voices, but i'm not listening
telling me who i am and who i should be
a movie plays out in yr head
only to get a one star review in gossip bibles
i dono nymr.
i take vowels out sometimes so you can fill in the blanks
in my sentences and my passenger seat
oh how'd i'd love a night alone.
i'm a fragment to a story only everyone tells
upstairs kids hoping for wedding bells
i'm a cheap copy, a poor interpretation
i'm concretely incomplete.
butjustfornow.
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i wrote this awhile ago.
fun to look back.

had a falling out again, with myself and i.
told him to pack his shit and go.
said "they'll never split us apart"
look at us now.
caught a hold of myself, but i'm pretty sure it was bad throw
head is swimming, but my gut is sinking
i hoped you choked
but just so i could save you
we've got nothing but time on our hands
and smiles on our faces
sophomore slump is over, now we're junior disasters
soon to be senior failures.
i lost friends this year, but i gained way more.
totally not the type of people i'd imagine myself with
but that's the best part.

i wouldn't normally do this...

but...

A
L I
G H T
H O U S E
H A S A
B E A C
O N O F
L I G H
T T H A
T G U I
D E S U
S A L L
W H E R
E W E N
E E D T
O GO, B E
C A U S E W
E C A N N O T
A L W AY S S E E
W H E R E W E H A V E B E E N
O R W H E R E W E A R E G O I N G

and now my grandmama aint the only girl callin me baby

don't call home
cause i made friends with ignore
and he don' wanna talk to you no more.
we're stagnant motion, we don't make any sense
we're kids who don't love you anymore, but my waist is on the fence
stop and go, take it slow, but i didn't seem to mind
just a stowaway boy, use when you're in need
i purposely make an ass of myself, and then i virtually hang myself for it
i can't make mistakes when no one's watching
i break routine like husbands break vows
breaking my own back
i'm eating myself alive
stress is getting to me
or maybe it's me
but i don't know anymore
but what do i know
i can make a bad decision like everyones business
and don't you forget.